Sometimes I have to go back and reread the post I made on Tuesday.
Tonight is one of those nights.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
ponderings
"After sanctification it is difficult to state what your aim in life is, because God has taken you up into His purpose by the Holy Ghost; He is using you now for His purposes throughout the world as He used His Son for the purpose of our salvation. If you seek great things for yourself-God has called me for this and that; you are putting a barrier to God's use of you. As long as you have a personal interest in your own character, or any set ambition, you cannot get through into identification with God's interest. You can only get there by losing forever any idea of yourself and by letting God take you right out into His purpose for the world, and because your goings are of the Lord, you can never understand your ways.
"I have to learn that the aim in life is God's, not mine. God is using me from His great personal standpoint, and all He asks of me is that I trust Him, and never say-Lord, this gives me such heartache. To talk in that way makes me a clog. When I stop telling God what I want, He can catch me up for what He wants without let or hindrance. He can crumple me up or exalt me, He can do anything He chooses. he simply asks me to have implicit faith in Himself and in His goodness. Self-pity is of the devil; if I go off on that line I cannot be used by God for His purpose in the world. I have 'a world within the world' in which I live, and God will never be able to get me outside it because I am afraid of being frost-bitten." (Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest, Nov. 10)
I read this yesterday and was like, "Wow." I often find myself a little lost in this current "stage" in my life - many of my friends are either getting married in the near future, getting engaged, or either entering into a serious relationship or growing one even stronger. These times can be a bit discouraging and disheartening, but as this exert says, I cannot understand my situation right now, for these decisions are the Lord's. And for me to sulk around in my own disgusting self-pity is even worse. It says that I do not trust God for His promises of having a hope and a future for me.
Does this realization mean that I'll forever be okay with where I am right now? No - but maybe this is one step closer to me not fretting over it day and night. God has a plan - and I'd rather be an aqueduct than a clog.
"I have to learn that the aim in life is God's, not mine. God is using me from His great personal standpoint, and all He asks of me is that I trust Him, and never say-Lord, this gives me such heartache. To talk in that way makes me a clog. When I stop telling God what I want, He can catch me up for what He wants without let or hindrance. He can crumple me up or exalt me, He can do anything He chooses. he simply asks me to have implicit faith in Himself and in His goodness. Self-pity is of the devil; if I go off on that line I cannot be used by God for His purpose in the world. I have 'a world within the world' in which I live, and God will never be able to get me outside it because I am afraid of being frost-bitten." (Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest, Nov. 10)
I read this yesterday and was like, "Wow." I often find myself a little lost in this current "stage" in my life - many of my friends are either getting married in the near future, getting engaged, or either entering into a serious relationship or growing one even stronger. These times can be a bit discouraging and disheartening, but as this exert says, I cannot understand my situation right now, for these decisions are the Lord's. And for me to sulk around in my own disgusting self-pity is even worse. It says that I do not trust God for His promises of having a hope and a future for me.
Does this realization mean that I'll forever be okay with where I am right now? No - but maybe this is one step closer to me not fretting over it day and night. God has a plan - and I'd rather be an aqueduct than a clog.
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